::Sweet Indulgence Of Mine::

wenwenpiggy — Tue, 22 Nov 2011 09:09:50 +0000

Suddenly I see both sides of the story and I realize how bad it is on this side of the relationship. How flaunting a new love can be so detrimental so the other party.

Then I realize, it’s all about whether you want to be selfish, to pursue your new love… But friends will always stand on the side of the victim. Sad life..

Our getaway…

wenwenpiggy — Mon, 10 Oct 2011 13:57:10 +0000

I can’t wait to get my ass outta here, even if it’s for 3 days. I can’t stand the stress, can’t stand feeling broke and I can’t stand that my mind runs wild here.

I’m just gonna clear my head when I get there…

Happy. My heart skips a beat.

wenwenpiggy — Thu, 06 Oct 2011 15:39:08 +0000

Over at baby’s place now while he’s sleeping like a log.. Awfully tired from all that drinking at the event but i got to meet some really cool people albeit the language barrier.

Oh life, I love you can’t wait for our genting trip next week. Some alone time with baby, not throughout the trip of cos but it’s the least I can ask for! Pray hard I win money!!! Happyz!!

wenwenpiggy — Tue, 04 Oct 2011 18:35:23 +0000

I just had this passing thoughts and i needed to pen it down, or rather, type it down..

Trust, is something that’s given and not requested for. If you have it, you earned it. But once you lose me trust, you’re never getting it back 100%. A few occurances have happened and now, all i can say is, i dont know what to think anymore. The world is never honest, i know. That’s why I’m never going to trust fully again, not even the ones closest to me.

Was watching Glee (sidetrack), and watching Quinn agonise over her child, i realise i could sort of feel what she felt. Like, losing a child, never being able to hold them again. That pain, is a lost pain, that leaves you hanging in limbo.

On another side note, work is a killer, literally! I am in my holiday mood now, other moods aside, and I’m hoping xmas would come soon.

On the other side note, I was passing by Kovan and this bus stop and a flashback came to me. Of us, waiting by the bus stop to go over to your place. It was my first stayover at yours, just before our sentosa trip. It was the night we hung out like any normal couple, dinner, grabbing the bus back, watching Amelie just for a bit.. we always seemed to have lots of things to chat about. where did all that go to?

After 20min into writing this, i realised why i was so into the reminiscing mood. 3 oct 2009, you showed me what love (supposedly that was it) can do, despite boudaries, when you travelled all the way to KL just to be with me, even if it was for the night only. And now i wonder, was that really you? You’ve done enough now, i dont want to seem like im a victim and all, cos we were all wrong. Mine for believing over and over again that something could turn out right. Yours for making use of that fact.

In a much happier place now…

wenwenpiggy — Thu, 15 Sep 2011 11:15:38 +0000

To him I just cant be true.

How apt.

Over

wenwenpiggy — Mon, 05 Sep 2011 12:09:40 +0000

I don’t know why I’m being such a bitch about it. But as much as I wanna be magnanimous and all, I think I’m done with it. Petty as it may seem but it’s forever going to be there no matter how I try to pretend it’s not. It’s not like I wanna go but it won’t hurt to be asked. Especially when he’s my boyfriend.

It’s childish and all, yea I know. And it’s his freaking birthday celebration but fuck it. We’ve all got a rep and it ain’t nice. U know what I did in the past and I know what you did. Which is exactly why I’m such a bitch now because u never know what’s going to happen.

And it’s not just you. It’s everyone’s fault too. Mine for not voicing out (I did actually bring it up). His for not keeping himself in check. but what the fuck seriously. He calls you his soulmate like I’m fucking blind.

人要自动一点, you should now.

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once again…

wenwenpiggy — Thu, 01 Sep 2011 16:55:47 +0000

i never seem to learn from my mistakes..

once again, i stepped into ur house..

once again, we touch and it feels almost like we’ve never been apart..

once again, we kiss and my lips fit yours just fine..

once again, you disappeared..

im trying very hard to hold up.. but each time u appear in my life, u send me tumbling into hell..

and i ask myself again, why am i lettin you do this to me?

That time of the year..

wenwenpiggy — Thu, 18 Aug 2011 01:09:02 +0000

It’s that time of the year again when I think whether is this job suitable for me?

The emotional/mental side is too much for me to handle, to the point where I feel I can really breakdown.. Frequent headaches, insomnia and fear.. But the money is alright.. So should I stand on Uncle SAM’s side or should I protect myself before something worse comes along..

Tell me..

Heartache

wenwenpiggy — Mon, 11 Jul 2011 17:21:12 +0000

“I’m afraid I’ll stop loving you one day..”

Do you know how much that hurts when i heard it? Do you know how it kills me deep within, the very words that suddenly woke me up. Suddenly, i’m like thinking hey! that could really happen.. then what becomes of me? Maybe we took things too fast, maybe we’re just in the so-called honeymoon period. I dont know anymore. If that thought did occur, it means you must have thought about it often enough to say it out. It means that maybe my frequent tantrums have indeed been too irritable for you to handle?

As if that’s not enough, the monday blues is seriously getting to me, what with the clients backing out, sales figures low and me sick.. Yes, SICK!

It’s enough. No more pondering, maybe i just had enough.